Bald is sexy!

It happened.   After only one round of chemo... almost exactly 2 weeks after his first treatment...

In the middle of a very intense moment of grown-up playtime, the first clumps of hair begin to fall... We were both getting choked up a bit...  He jumped in the shower with the razor and went to town.  Keep in mind this is the hairiest man that I personally know (apart from my dad, lol)... head to tow, full beard, everything... now he's a skin head and has a baby face.  But, he's still sexy!... First thing this morning, I jumped on the pc and ordered him a little funny surprise!   [ Who Needs Hair.. ? shirt @ Zazzle ]

Coffeeeeeeee

I want to open a coffee shop.  I've wanted my own coffee shop for years!  When I was a kid I dreamt of my own coffee shop/deli/bakery...  I'm ready for my dream to come true!  I'd love to have a place like Central Perk from Friends... a nice little comfy cozy place where people can stop it for a quick coffee or pastry... or they can chill and relax with their friends or family and sip on a nice latte.   I'm finally getting off my ass.... I haven't a clue what I'm doing (at least not on the business start-up part)... so I've registered myself and my significant other for a small business seminar on Feb 2nd.  Can't wait!  This is soooo MY year!!!!

Round 1 of Chemo is Complete

He did it.  He survived week 1!!!  And, like a champ, might I add!   I ran by the local bakery and picked up this cake real quick after work Friday night as a HOORAH!.... the little girl running the bakery gave me an odd look when I asked her to put "You kicked ass!" on the cake.... I think it's quite fitting, wouldn't you say?

The entire week was touch and go.  We weren't sure how he would react.  As it turns out, it was nothing compared to what would come once the steroids from the week began to wear off....

This weekend proved to be quite miserable for him.  He was very achy and fidgety.... very sore... and I felt completely helpless.  Today is a day he's been dreading all week.  Today is the day he has to get the Neulasta shot, which is an injection given to chemo patients after their treatment to boost their white blood count production.  We've been warned that it will leave him with terrible bone and muscle pain.  I am praying it's not too unbearable for him... as he's already in quite a bit of discomfort.  :(

Remote Healing

I have been told I was a Lightworker and I used to spend hours each day tapping into that awareness that I seem to have forgotten about. I've been "asleep" so to say, for far too long. I live a hectic, sometimes chaotic, life with rambunctious kids, a full-time job, homework and school projects, housework, being the mom, the chef, the maid, the wife, the taxi...and whatever other role the have for me to play at whatever moment they wish. I have not dedicated time to myself for meditation and that "awakening" in a long time. I think it's time to start again. 

Here's an exercise I plan to practice to help my boyfriend's healing through his Chemotherapy treatments. [on a side note, we did discover that Patchouli oil, which I was using for a different spell, helped him sleep through the night. I did not realize until last night that patchouli oil was helpful in treating insomnia, as well as anxiety.] Good to know! :]

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Spells to Get Rid of Unwanted Guests

Ever wish that dreadful visitor would leave or not show to begin with?  I'm sure we all have!...  These may be of help.  Here are four quick spells to get rid of unwanted guests.

Unwanted Visitor Spell • Place a broom by the front door.  If you can, make a small sweeping motion as place the broom, and if you can do this without being noticed, so much the better. This will speed such people on their way and give you some peace of mind.

To Get Rid of Unwanted Guests • Sprinkle salt in their shoes and imagine them outside your home.

Dorothy Morrison talks about keeping unwanted guests away in her book, "Everyday Magic."  Here are two from her book...

To Make Unwanted Guests Leave Your Home • Turn the household broom upside down, standing it up with the bristles pointing toward the ceiling. The guests will leave shortly.

To Keep Unwanted Guests Away From Your Home • Before you work this spell, make sure all family members are safely inside your home.  Anoint all outer door knobs with patchouli oil and smear a little across the thresholds. Unwanted guests will stay away.

Chemo Sucks. That is all.

This is the first of many blogs (of many different kinds) to come... let's just say, it's been a while.

I'll step back a year and then we will get to the title.

October 2010, I underwent a Radical Trachelectomy, a robotic procedure to remove my cervix.  Sounds fun, huh?  It was far from fun.  I received my cancer Dx in late September of that year.  It started when my yearly Pap earlier than January came back abnormal, which prompted further tests, which came back inconclusive.  My doc simply said, "Let's do this again in 6 months."  Six months was here... and I jump in for the full round of exams again and biopsies.... and the dreadful waiting period before you know the results.  I remember being home early from work, for whatever reason, the day my doctor called.  My kids were there when the phone rang and watched me fall apart, bless them.  Stage 1b Cervical Cancer.  Surgery would be in 3 weeks.  On October 13th I went in to the OR praying that when I emerged I would be cancer free. (and I did!) Due to the robotic procedure, I ended up having several complications and was back in the hospital with an infection only days after being released.  Five long weeks of recovery.

With that said, I can't quite relate to someone going through Chemotherapy.  And, that is what my boyfriend is going through at this very moment.  Shockingly, he received his cancer Dx 11 days before Christmas.  He had a mass for quite a while that a previous doctor (and him) sort of shrugged off, thinking it was nothing more than fluid build-up and not to worry.  Doc #2 pulled him in for surgery the following day.  He wasn't so lucky as I... even though the doc seems to have gotten all of the cancer, he is having to undergo 4 strong rounds of Chemotherapy, the first began this week.  He is on day 3.  These treatments are 5 days long, 5 hours per day, with a 3 week break afterwards...... and repeat that cycle 3 more times.

"He's young." the doc keeps saying, "He'll bounce through it." .... I really hope this is the case.   Even with this, I know his body is going to be wiped.  I've been drawn to get more into my witchy roots, which I have for a long time now left simmering to the side. Mostly, to assist in his healing process.  It's always been the heart of who I am, but I have neglected to give any of my time or energy to that part of my work.   I started this blog back up for several reasons.  One, as a timeline or a resource we can look back on and say "Wow, remember going through that?  How blessed are we now!?"  And, for another, a way to motivate me to keep doing that which I love... to embrace the energy and pull that I have been so neglecting spiritually.